Sunday 30 January 2011

随便啦
习惯就好
没事的
哭过就好了
累了就睡...
或是写日记,把所有的不开心写出来
比较快好
没事没事...



你会挨过去的....加油

你不知道的事

如今的心情就像歌词写的一样

你不知道的事


很多

努力着
却被人说成这样

自己懂就好
自己懂自己痊愈了多少就好

你有你的做法
那是你

我不是你,
这样是我的做法
也是唯一的做法
不要拿自己的想法用在别人身上
懂我的人就会明白
可惜
你不是

我和你解释过但你好像忘了

算了

你要恨我,

也是因该的.

因为这些都是我自己拿来的



请不要在我伤口上撒盐了.

Saturday 29 January 2011

如果能...重来

一大早,听着黄小琥的重来

很好听又感动的一首歌

 回忆不断地挤上脑海里

想着“如果能重来” 这五个字

如果能重来....彼此会不会更理智

如果能重来...彼此会不会更体谅

如果能重来...我就会选择不说谎

如果能重来...结局会不会不一样

如果能重来....心会不会没有那么痛

恐怕这是不可能了


我需要的..只是那么一点点的尊重


好让我找回那属于我的骄傲.




想你想搞疯了
真傻

The Angel and the Devil.The Good and the Bad one

29/01/2010♥♥ A day to remember....♥♥ Is Evelyn's aka. My beloved sister's birthdayyyy♥♥

Yes,this post if for her actually.LOL sorry for the late posting cos I'm trying to find inspiration to write it in creative way.Don't mind yea OoiLikThing♥♥

Woo.Still remember the last year blog post that I posted? Blah it seems like it was just happened yesterday but is already one year! Time passed really super fast.If you guys were to read the post I posted last year,here is the link.

Click here<--

Okay lets start.Haha The precious post is all about introducing her and also promoting her la but this year I planned to write the story about us.Yes! Me and her,Ooi Lik Thing♥

 Start story from our childhood time

Hahaha really thanks to my parents for producing us by just two years apart and not too far from each other. So since is just two years,our mind set is almost similar and have no gap in between us. And I have no idea why our characteristic are so different from each other. When she was small(or just born), she was pampered by the whole family since she was the first child of the entire Ooi's family and Chiou's family. She was a very guai child. Din like to cry or make noises and very obedient. Is a guai baby. That is why the whole family love her so much. Even my mom untill now also keep saying

" Ni jie jie cong xio jiu hen guai liao. dao xian zai hai shi jiang guai"

Ish*

(The Angel)

So after two years, here comes the devil.Me! Sigh. I was a naughty child.Or should I say a VERY VERY naughty child. Totally opposite from her. Keep crying from day to night.Keep making trouble such as push all the tins and bottles that been display highly in the supermarket,run and sit in the middle of the road just because wanna eat something I want but my mom don't let.Haha my mom hate me alot when I was small and she even kick me while I'm making noises in the salung. Pathetic me.Sigh Haha. and this is what my mom always said till now

" Ni ar ni ar, huai dan dao yao ming oh! Beh tahan.yi zhi ku yi zhi ku. wo shi qi dao~~~"

Ish*

(The Devil)


So now you know how difference we are right. Erm by just flashing back the memories we had since we were small makes me laugh and laugh. But all are sweet memories. Thanks to my parents who actually created an awesome childhood memories for both of us.

Since young,my mom loves to take pictures of her two beloved daughter. So we have a lot of photo albums in our house.

Pictures like when we were swimming, when we were vacation-ing,when we have our birthday party, when we have gatherings with our relatives and many more. Nice nice nice♥

Continues to our teenage's life
Our teenage life are like during secondary time. LOL since both of us already a teenagers, so our relationship actually turns awkward actually. I'm not sure that is the correct word to use but erm it seems like there is a gap between us. We have separated rooms. Thus we do our own stuffs la basically. We rarely talk to each other very often. I'll just stick in my room and so to her.

What makes me laughing non stop when flashing back is when we used those really weird tactics to fight with each other. Haha sometimes when I bosong her right, she will beat me with her palm on my hand,the i'll beat her back and run away and then she will chase after me and beat me.Beat here and there. Omg so tired*hin. But i used to beat her hardly then she will do the same to me. Yea. This is what call childish.♥

Or sometimes I'll pull her hair, she will pull mine.Damn childish.I still remember since primary right,my mom sayang her a lot cos she keep achieving good results ah such as Full A's in UPSR ar,PMR ar. Even appear before in newspaper. Gou lik lor. My chicken mother will suddenly become those AUNTIE AUNTIE in pasar by taking that particular pieces of newspaper and spread around.Ish sial.Sombong betul. So then he will really compare my result and hers.Sigh I tried hard to achieve de but I still cannot be same as hers but I still get 4A's in UPSR and 5A's in PMR ah. Also not bad what. Then i'll sometimes complain to my mom about her and talk bad about her but my mom always side her cos she very obedient maaaaaa....very pandai maaaa.Ish. I'm like Cinderella huh? Hahaha
But after she ended her secondary life,is time for her to forward her education to college. Haiz i tot I wouldn't cry but I did cry when the day she left Malacca and gone to KL. We have not been separated for so many years so kinda berat hati=( Eventually cry like hell. Swt. Haha

I'm so lonely during the two years. Always alone at home talking to the wall. Thank God I didn't get depression. Haha

Then then story continues till now, when I come to college♥
 LOL my sister isn't our gang yet till last year I brought her in and then we form a new gang! Hahaha we have a lot chapters formed in our story book.Hehe lets see how many and how often we went to trip.

Langkawi Trip

The first PD trip

Waterfall trip

Full house gathering
Desa Park City
Genting
2nd PD trip
UK Farm
And the genting trip yesterday.But haven post picture yet.Hehe. Woo many trips and gathering that we have! So many memoriesssssss. Love you guys. You guys are awesome. Can we make a promise? After everyone finished interns and when you are back from America,we will have our next trip ok? We go...Singapore Universal Studio?Okay? I'll plan okay?! Hahaha 


Okay I'm kinda tired already of writing Haha. Before tha, i'll briefly summarize the different characteristic we have untill now

She
-tall
-thin
-naive
-childish
-jokes damn cold
-dun like foul words
-has no knowledge of sex education
-don't like to hiao
-small breast cup
-weird pronunciation on Chinese words
-Good result
-Obedient
-love Guy

Me
-Short
-A bit fat(I have the feeling that the cb kong will say" harh? you sure is abit only?" ish)
-not naive at all(Xin ji zhong)
-Mature at certain times
-Jokes damn funny(personally think)
-love to scold bad words
-has 10 years of sex knowledge
-love to hiao 
-big breast cup
-Good in Chinese wakakka
-Not so good result
-Love to fight with parents.Haha
-love Girl(Haha swt. crapping)

Well our similarity are BOTH OF US ARE GORGEOUS* starring left and right"

Kita adalah kebanggaan keluarga Ooi. Dan juga anak kebanggaan kepada papa dan mama aku.







Erm okay la I'll end here la reading. My wishes to you is very simple. Just stay happy and lovely as you are now. Stay pretty too. And I'm kinda worry of you going America alone. Worry you will kena bully la by Negros la and etc. Worry that you are too naive.Later kena orang tipu badan dengan duit macam mana? You punya mama nanti ambik pisau o adui. Best of all la. Hope you pass thru the interviews and proceed to your dream la to travel in the oversea. I'm gonna miss you very much and Tong all also.I'll take care of your baby car la Don't worry. I'll take care also la papa and mama. When you come back then we together go visit them in rumah orang tua okay? Hahahaha. And I have a request. PLEASE BUY ME A REAL GUN IF YOU SAW IT IN AMERICA. I need it badly you to shoot die two human. You know I know la who is that. Hahahahahahaha!
Okay la take care and hoping that you will meet your mr.Right soon la. and I'll also get my mr/ms.Right soon.Haha and I'm okay if I get a Negro's jie fu. Haha I'll bear with it okay?If you need more info on sex knowledge, me and Tong can provide you "reference materials" for you la okay? What you need is just prepare a 20GB of hard disc space the material can already. Let you explore explore and adapt adapt international culture awhile.Haha


All the best my beloved sister! Still the same,
Papa,mama and me will love you always.


Muacksss♥♥


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Continue emo.Haha

Friday 28 January 2011

Mood swing

Sigh

Suddenly emo.

What the heck my stupid mind is filling.

Can I stop all these?

It is really making me mad.

I HATE IT.

Ooi Lik Wen, don't regret on any decision you made. Lied means lied. The person wouldn't care you anymore. That person wouldn't give a damn on you anymore. This is what you deserve. Don't keep feeling regret. Just think that the decision was right as the time passed. Just think that it is a WHITE LIES.


Wondering when will I fully recover? Sigh. What is the best way to heal?

Okay I recently started to write diary. Have no one to talk to when in home so just release my emotion into the diary. Hoping that it works in healing myself. Just wanna jot down some memorable stuffs that I have gone through in the past few months before it gets blurr in my mind one day. Scare.



 Starbucks diary.Love it so much

Printed some pictures out. So cuteeee with its mini size=)






I shall learn to love myself more sometimes.Where goes my arrogant?

Thursday 27 January 2011

=)

计划成功了
戏也演完了
黄立雯,
这不是你想要的吗?

不知道应该说自己笨还是伟大
最后的我还是选择伤害自己
以为可以演的很潇洒
以为可以走的很洒脱
但原来不是
原来比想象的还要难受
原来比想象的还要痛
快要窒息了


不知道我为什么要这样,但是我不能控制


很想知道你在做什么
很想知道你心情有没有不好
但是我没有资格去问
因为
这是我自己拿来的。

只要你开心就好了。




Thanks to all my friends who stay beside me while i'm healing. Love you guys. Special thanks to Casey for her blog post.Muacks. ♥♥♥

Thursday 20 January 2011

Thanks.You

The smiling mug and smiling candy♥

Really love sticky candy.Not sweet and nice

Add caption


The last present I think,
The last hug I think.

Anyway love the present a lot.It comes with a priceless letter that I treasure it a lot a lot.♥♥♥



Going for interview tomorrow at Sony! Yeah! But why am I not nervous at all? LOL

ps: Oh yea! I added one application into my blog.Saw a LIKE button on below of each post?You are encourage to click it! Is not compulsory but is a MUST!  I'll love you more if you click it=) Thanks

Tuesday 11 January 2011

慢慢等?不等了..

每次都是被伤害的那个
每次都是被玩弄的那个
每次都是不被珍惜的那个
付出的越多 伤的越深

昨天的我整个人傻去了
不知道自己在说什么
不知道自己在做什么
被伤害到没有感觉了吧

我的心再也不能负荷再多余的伤害


不想再爱了
不想再等了


这一切的一切已经够了

=(

♥枯萎的玫瑰花,枯萎的爱情♥  
 很珍惜的纪念品

Big sigh.

Sigh. I'm just feel so lost recently. A lot of stuffs happened. A lot of stuffs bothering me on the same time. I feel like giving up everything but I just can't. The feeling is just so complicated.  I wanna move a step further but I have to limit myself. I have no idea who am I towards you and who you are towards me.

Telling myself. I have just a paper to go and I can release all my emotion freely. This exam war is just so suffering. Mind is contented fully with notes and you.

I'll leave when the time is right. Be tough,you.


I'm wonder.Am i being appreciated for acting like this? Not? I'm so stupid,right?


"♥Silent hug♥"

Imma need it

Listening to ALin-给我一个理由忘记,寂寞不痛

Praying hard for my uncle,my parents,my friends,you, and myself

Your tears make me worry of you But seems not worth of worrying huh?

Friday 7 January 2011

给我一个理由忘记

最近睡不好吃不好
还是那一句
想太多
我知道那是多余的
时间不能到会
一切都不能重来
没有所谓的如果
只能面对现实的残酷

尽量让自己很忙很忙
因为唯有这样我才不会有多余的时间想任何东西
但是
但我一个人的时候
我整个人就不行了

我好怕
快要放假了
回到家乡
只剩我一个人
我的好朋友们都不在
我姐也不再
爸爸妈妈上班到十二点半夜
那间屋子只剩我一个人

找不到人聊天
找不到人倾诉
找不到人拥抱
找不到人靠
我只想大声的哭
哭到泣不成声都没关系
我不想在压抑了
我好辛苦
我好累


现在的我如歌词写得一样


“雨都停了 这片天灰什麽呢
我还记得 你说我们要快乐
深夜里的脚步声 总是刺耳
害怕寂寞 就让狂欢的城市陪我关灯
只是哪怕周围再多人 感觉还是一个人
每当我笑了 心却狠狠的哭著

给我一个理由忘记 那麽爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃 当时做的决定
有些爱 越想抽离却越更清晰
而最痛的距离 是你不在身边 却在我的心里

当我走在去过的每个地方
总会听到你那最自由的笑
当我回到一个人住的地方
最怕看到冬天你最爱穿的那件外套
只是哪怕周围再多人 感觉还是一个人
每当我笑了 心却狠狠的哭著

给我一个理由忘记 那麽爱我的你
给我一个理由放弃 当时做的决定
有些爱 越想抽离却越更清晰
而最痛的距离 是你不在身边 却在我的心里

我找不到理由忘记 大雨里的别离
我找不到理由放弃 我等你的决心
有些爱 越想抽离却越更清晰
而最痛的距离 是你不在身边 却在我的心里
我想你”

A-Lin 新专辑-赞 ♥ 



好想家
生病了
好想回到妈妈的怀抱
回家之前
很想见你一面
但算了

Tuesday 4 January 2011

句号.

原本已定的B-Day提早发生了
就是今天

04/01/2011

原本以为可以再设定好的日子里做我想做的东西,想看下妈妈,去一趟你家,一起吃饭,听你弹吉他........但....失败啦...什么都没啦.....

除了不舍还是不舍

今天那不完美的结局让我领悟了原来我是那么的不被珍惜..
没有所谓散场的拥抱,没有吻别

剩下的只有
发脾气,吵架
已成为我们的沟通方式
早点结束也好
你就可以不用见我了
做你想做的事情

你保重

现在的我好想好想好想你哦.
但以后都不能见到你啦

我爱你♥